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Title: I'm an Idiot (But Only Around Him)

Pairing: Ben/Riley

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: *evil smile* Yes I own them!

Summary: He makes me feel like a moron.

Warnings: I'm sorry, but Riley is a wee bit angsty today.



I feel like an idiot every time I’m around him. I know that I have my place. I know that I’m somewhat important. But, whenever I’m around him, I’m just so fucking idiotic.
And, it really is strange, because, I’m the fucking computer expert. I’m always learning new shit. I can always write a new program, or mess with some teenage girl’s myspace account and replace all of her photos with pictures of goats…
But, whenever I’m near Ben. It’s just so hard to be smart. To be funny. To be witty. It’s just hard. Because, he knows all these facts about everything. Because he has life experience. And he has confidence. And he knows that people want him to talk. And he knows that he can’t be replaced. He’s not in this constant fear that some sarcastic little fresh out of college twit is going to come by. He’s not scared that that sarcastic little fresh out of college kid is going to know more then him. He’s not scared that that kid is going to replace him. That the little college kid is going to be straight. And friends with Abigail. And not in love with his best friend.
-Riley